Lately, I can’t get enough sleep. Ever. Mondays are the hardest, I think I’m ready to go back to work but by noon my blood sugar is way off, I’m shaking, some days I black out entirely, I feel anxious and my heart rate is totally whacked out (but I’m sure that’s my morning coffee and the stress of work). I run a fever daily, and I’m generally exhausted. All for no obvious reason.

I’ve had a couple theories about why I’ve been constantly running a fever and feeling stupid tired:

1. Maybe I’ve caught some kind of virus and these are the symptoms I’m having
2. Could be something wrong with the air at work? I feel fine when I’m sitting on my butt at home or on my butt in a cafe on the weekend
3. Could be something energetic to do with all the super demanding extremely nice, understanding oil patch workers I talk to everyday and the urgency that I seem to place on all of their demands and concerns… They’re my peeps, I want to take care of them. Part of my, “If I don’t do it, we’re all going to DIE” mentality
4. Could be my thyroid. Screwed up thyroids run in my family. About a 32 gazillion people have suggested to me that I should have my TH level checked, and when that many people throw a recommendation out, there’s usually a pretty good reason for it. Or, there was a headline in the paper last week about thyroids and everyone is just throwing it out there.
5. Maybe, possibly, a meridian or channel is out of whack and a trip to my super-awesome doctor at his “healing centre” is in order.

I choose number 5! My doctor is great. He’s a an MD and practices acupuncture, prescribes Chinese herbs, and dabbles in homeopathy. You will never make direct eye contact with him, try as you might, something over your shoulder is of more interest to him than your face. My hope is that he can address a developing problem before it becomes one that has to be rescued by a daily dose of chemical. Other solutions I’m resolved to try include a daily dose of self-inflicted reiki, limited post-work computer usage, increased levels of meditation, and a ridiculously early bedtime.

Why go the route of the insane? Why not? I’ve seen what the regular medical system does for people first hand, and I think there are better ways to address fatigue than treating it like a disease. I’m going to take the less acceptable, seemingly senseless approach. I will beat this. I’m not that lazy.

This entry was posted on Tuesday, February 26th, 2008 at 9:25 pm and is filed under daily post.